Okay, so apparently my last post scared people and now they aren't reading my blog anymore. So, let me clear something up. I don't mind it when generic communication takes place online. It's those confrontational, dramatic conversations that I would much rather have in person.

This Saturday is Amy's baby shower. I am pretty excited, there will be quite a few people attending that I haven't seen in ages. I am even more excited for May, when this little baby boy will actually be here! Yay for babies!

Just so you know

I prefer human contact. Not contact via the computer. The lack of clarity in conversations that take place online, is just way too overwhelming for me to handle. I would rather someone yell in my face then attempt to do it online.

Renovating

Messing around with some new blog colors/layouts. The old one was getting too dark for me.

Envy

I aspire to be one of those uncensored bloggers someday. You know, the ones that actually pour all their emotions into their blogs, without thinking what one will think or how they will judge.

I will be that blogger someday, somehow. Until then, I will just envy the free spirits who recklessly pour their hearts out.

If you are happy and you know it...

I believe that happiness is a choice. I think that most people would agree with me on this. What I don't understand is why people don't choose the happiness path more often. Am I just being naive in believing that it really is that easy? I, myself, need to remember to pick that happiness path more often. To those who never pick it? You don't know what you are missing out on.

Pride

In one year and one day I will be thirty. Seriously, where has the time gone? I have had many ups and downs in my life and am ready for the downs to be over with. However, I am beginning to learn that no matter how old I am, how much I have been through, God always has new challenges awaiting me.

A recent battle of mine has to do with morality, standing up for what I believe in, and knowing when to back down. I'm a stubborn girl. When I have an opinion in something, or feel I have been wronged, it takes quite a bit for me to back down.
With this latest battle, my integrity and my pride seem to be clashing. God knows I need to take the high road and be the bigger person. I just wish that it were that easy. I need to realize that just because another may resort to insults and venom, it doesn't mean that I need to stoop to their level. Let's face it though, I, like everyone else, strive have my voice heard.

When does it become pointless? Is vindication too selfish of a desire?